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Friday, July 20, 2007

I m tired. Feeling real tired. Just let me type fin this emo post n i will be fine again.

Everything changed after e end of FOC and e begining of year 2. Politics came in n it all fell apart. Some ppl who were once frens of mine are just like strangers to me now. Just becos of a misunderstanding tat happened during e main comm voting period n also me being emo for like 2 weeks cos i was really troubled n tat make some frens of mine hate me n r now like strangers to me. Although we may exchange his n byes, its still saddening.

It all fell apart when i felt a change in someone close to me. I was really troubled becos of tat. I was tinking if i shd talk to him abt it or not. In e end i did. I told him abt it. He dont seem happy abt wad i told him n he spread it to e others. Plus, i tink he is e one who caused all e misundestandings. I was really sad n shocked when i found out abt it la. Fancy him backstabbing me in my back. I trusted e wrong person. It hit me real hard n bad but i hanged on.

I know tat our relationship wont be like last time anymore. But i still try, try to make it up with him. But he dont seem to wan to do it. So its ok, nvm. But he still talks(backstab, make fun or wadever crap) abt me behind my back. He also tries to show his concern for me but its actually fake. Wad a hypocrite. Dun tink i dunno, but i do know. Its just tat i keep it all to myself. Now, i dun tink he treats me as a fren ba. But i m not sure abt tat. N i dun wan to know abt it too.

Besides him, e other ppl who were once frens of mine also kind of give me a hard time. I feel so left out whenever i m with them. They just treat me as invisible. Tats y i haven been really keen to go to emart nowadays. N also, i prefer to be more alone or with other frens now too. I feel weird or rather uneasy whenever i m with them so tats y i prefer to be alone or with my other frens now.

I feel tat there is on one here for me. Not even dear or mei. In fact, i feel tat i m drifting away from mei. As for dear we dun usually tell each other secrets n stuff de. Where r my frens when i need just 1 just 1 only to listen to me to understand me to make me feel better. But its ok, i can manage by myself but e qn is how long more?

Sch is very diff now. For this sem, its e first time i dun look forward to going back to sch after e 2 weeks break. Its so sad. How so much changes can take place in such a short time. I guess tat its partly becos of these crap tat i din do well for my common test. But i wont find excuses cos its a fact tat i din do well. Got to buck up for final exams le.

Smilez=D??

11:59 PM

Yours Truly

Darren Yong
19
24/6/1989
Cancer
Ngee Ann Polytechnic
Molecular Biotechnology
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